-Tuesday, September 29, 2009-10:42 AM Y
haha... now, I guess my only sad thing is tat MR R found new ppl to chat on phone wif him... so he will leave mi alone... tat's v.sad... but I did talk to him on da phone for abt 1min yday... tat's way too sad...
sun at info 1 wif shuyi and aso at posb counter... so everything was quite okay... jus tat at night, my mood swing... haha... den I hardly talk...
yday morning was kinda bad... I tot he was avoiding me, but in da end, he was actually slping like a pig... he only wake up around 2 plus to 3 as he gt a talk to attend at 3.30. well.... I went to da police HQ to file a report against some1. but I think will go to the migation court b4 they could actually do smth abt it. so... ya... gt time den go do ba... anyway, meet him for dinner at mr.prata. haha... it was like... finally... but I was late for 1hr. sry, to make u wait, but tis time he was v.considerate. den I order banana prata(as usual) and tissue prata... den he order roti john n maggie prata. he wan to share maggie prata wif me, but i was too full... in da end... take away... den we go somewhere n chat for 2 to 3hrs... haha... chatting wif him is like in a politicies sia... haha.. quite cool...den on my way home, I go check my paid... pathetic amt... I was so moody tat I hardly talk... omg... den jiu reach home, but since internet gt some IP address conflicts, so I could not use da net n went to slp instead...
dun noe wad shd I do today...
-Sunday, September 27, 2009-2:18 AM Y
was at info 1 for quite sometimes to learn new thing, so overall it's okay...
anyway...
I noe wad type of gal I am... but I aso mus learn how to b considerate
though I have not meet u for 2wks, but I know I mus trust u. U put ur studies 1st... So I shall b a gd gal...
anyway...
I missed MR R, my soulmate. haha... gt 4 days nv contact u le... know u still sick, but hope u r alright. though cannt talk to u now(cuz ur phone is spoilt), but I got a lot of things to talk to u.... haha... missed chatting on da phone wif ya... u will b always my bestie friend...
-Friday, September 25, 2009-12:38 AM Y
I'm not in da good mood now...
My life now has 3 guys, beside my dad n bro...
I dun noe if I consider myself attached or not... cuz it seem tat he dun care abt it... he dun even bother at all
Mr R and I now r good friends, we decided not to b together but we still maintain a gd relationship. He still called me when it's my off day and apparently, he's sick. kinda worried abt him, but aso cannt called him, cuz he's serving NS.
I'm now with a guy called mx. but he dun seem to even bother abt me... realli hate da way he treated me. he's da 1 tat asked me to b his gf de. but till now, we haven meet. we meet once when I come back from KL. I nv expect him to ask mi... but since I agree to him, I will do my best. he has been saying I'm a nice gal n I got good personality. I dun think it's truth lor. but he dun seem to care abt me... even when I told him tat T jus propose to me. he even think tat i'm testing him. plz lor... I'm not tat type of gals...
Now, T, my ex. He claim tat i'm his only gal, but he lost his virgin to a gal tat they jus do for da sake of doing. I felt a sense of betrayal... but somehow, I left him for another guy 2 years ago... I wan to remain gd friends with him, but he propose to me instead. haiz... it's sux...
-Tuesday, September 15, 2009-1:05 PM Y
my feelings n emo over run my whole mind... I need to get back my normal self soon...
-Wednesday, September 2, 2009-11:12 PM Y
call me bu siao if u wan, i dun care
I hate my parents, super hate them. in their heart, only got money... wad's da point den... I dun noe y they will agree to go on tis trip. I hate to see them in this trip. from da looking forward to tis trip mindset, to the dun wan to go for this trip at all. I hate them. can they jus use their brain cells to think. I have no money at all tis month. paid was nt as much as tis month. f**k la... no money to give them allowance. told them tat I no money, but die die must ask mi to give. if they wan shame mi over there, go ahead lor. all these years, I have taken how much of their money. their own co-science is clear. so wad if they r my parents, big f**k is it? I rather they dun give birth to me.... realli hope tat I dun exist in this world. they even expect mi to paid for their trip... I dun noe... I realli hope tat I dun belong to this world... I used to think tat my cousin r da best, they understand me da most... I now dun noe... realli dun feel like trusting anyone in this world. tis world doesn't belong to me... I dun wan to have a pair of money sucker parents, i hate their unreasonable. they tot they r correct all da way. hate da way my grandparents dotes on them. hate da way they dun respect me. I wan live life da way I wan. they shld bloody hell know tat y tis few years I dun come back. y tis few years I have been changing bf non-stop. I hate to b in this home. nothing worth my stay. I rather come back late den having nag n been ask to pay for things tat I dun think I shld do...
I realli hate tis family... if I could go faraway land n live a new life... I will b very happy...
-Tuesday, September 1, 2009-11:40 AM Y
I realli had no idea wad he wan now... I missed u a lot, MR RNQM! I dun wan trust my feelings on those irrelvant thing. I wan to b by ur side now. I missed ur kisses... I missed ur hug. I noe u r not feeling gd, but can u jus share wif me? I dun wan c u alone. Even if it's nt smth gd, I will b by ur side, like wad u told me on sat. I wan to b ur side now. but it's bu ke neng de thing. u r in da police now... in ur own camp now. though it's jus a highway away, but I hope I can still b wif u.
U helped me 4get abt my past... I wan to do things for u too... I noe u meant a lot to me. I noe I have bad temper. I noe ur strong point n I wan u to know tat I love ya. Even though there's anything tat is disrupting u, I'm willingly to b by ur side. I missed ya, MR RNQM!!!!