-Saturday, October 31, 2009-1:12 AM Y
super not happy recently... n da 2 thing tat make me happy is da contact of 2 friends...
wednesday is my worst day of tis wk... 1st.. quarrel with him... den nxt... hp line kana barred as a result of not paying bills... nxt... let new cashier used my float... short 104.95... freaking sianz...
I realli hate da way u treat me, MR LAO REN JIA!!! reallii dun noe wad u thinking n u can stay contactless for a lot of days... sorry... i'm not you... I need to b contact... haiz.... broke down so many times aso no use...
anyway, got contact with MR R again... he contact me 1st... but I felt tat he's not happy... I dun care if u r reading my blog now... jus wanna tell u tat... friends shld always share things...
n aso recently... calvin called me... his bday is tml!!! wow... den we did chat. hahha... fun sia..
shall end here...
-Wednesday, October 28, 2009-10:53 AM Y
super hate da yr of 2009... missed da innocent days of my yesteryears... everything seem to b gg against me... I hate it... realli hate it...
Mr R re-appear in my life. I dun care much if he's gg to read my blog... I cried a lot yday... I dun noe y... I dun noe wad he's mind is thinking... I dun noe how to help him when he's down. he wan to keep everything to himself... I wan to help him as my friend, but he refused... dun noe wad tat guy is doing.... is it so hard to express himself or is he scare of failure if one show him kindness? I realli hate no idea wad he's thinking....
anyway, dear is preparing for his exam... so wun b meeting him for at least a wk or plus? anyway, I told him I already xi guan of tis life le... our rs is like tat... he bo chup me, I bo chup him... not reallli like couple lor... but tat's us...
nth much to blog... gg to work at 1 la...
-Friday, October 23, 2009-11:00 AM Y
I'm a happy happy gal now...
hehe... yday went out wif him after 2wks or rather 17days of not meeting him... n furthermore it was our 1st month...
Meet him at bouna vista after collecting my transcript from np... n tis time he was late... haha... nvm.. I'm nice as I was viewing my transcript n ignoring him... den take mrt to vivo city lor... He wanna watch a chinese flim tat has not aired it. and in da end, we watch a 3D cartoon tat he dun realli wan to watch. haha... no complaints for him. but he did say "Da ge" to me, which I rather pissed off, but somehow he found out immediately n shut his mouth... haha... so after da show, I thought we will go straight home, cuz btw, reach his place is around 10. but he was quite nice. He know I wan to look at da sea, so we go sit at da outside and enjoy da scenary n of cuz... debating n chatting... times passes v.fast... it was at 11.52pm, den I decided we should head home, but we can only take bus as mrt is no longer in its service at da point of time. somehow there's no bus for him, but as my bus came 1st... I board it and leaving him alone(I feel bad)... but when I reach home n bath, he msg me say he has board another bus tat goes his house... so tat's da end of our 1st month... I dun noe y I felt sweet... but I do <3 him...
-Tuesday, October 20, 2009-1:20 PM Y
cousins has been nagging me for nt blogging recently... sorry cousin, I dun haf da time...
where did I stop? on 12 Oct?
well... loads of things to update... so ya... COMPLAINTS too!
Haha... 12 oct was MAYTIAN's 21st bday~ Went out to sentosa wif her, Wari, Ain, Syarfa, Clare, ShiHui, JiaYu, Zhong Ming & Farhann. erm... everything turn out to be not so bad... well... at least to us, those who went down to da water was fun. had loads of picture-taking session n even a commerical session. haha... we called ourselves da 5s chee-byes... n wari insisted tat his was a lan-jiao. haha... so was fun... but da rain came... n turn us down... so sad sia... den go n show n was fun... the 4 pure chee-byes were bathing almost nakely inside the open shower area... wow... haha... den haf fun... after tat we went to catch a movie abt tsunami at vivo city... da show is quite touching yet no tears drop out from me... imagine Maytian was crying heavily beside me n I have to comfy her? haha... I think if I nv comfy her, her heart will pop out. haha... den after da show, we went n haf a small chat... all within da 4 unknown walls... den we celebrate maytian's bday n after tat we all go home n slp... n surprisingly, when I was abt to reach home, he msg me n tat was when he know my bday... a bit lame for him... den I go slp...
13 Oct was another bday celebration for my dearest cousin, my babe! Her 21st birthday celebration. well... we decided to meet at 7.30pm at ION. so somehow, wendy n sandy arrived 1st... n they were shopping n looking for a venue to haf da dinner. In da end, settle at a restaturant which sell ramen... for god sake, da restaurant smell gd, but nt da food... kinda disappointing... well... felt quite guilty for babe as it's her 21st bday, but da theme wasn't tat nice, somehow nt as nice as wendy's bday. haha... think tis yr most "feeling" birthday was for wendy. haha.. haf a nice chat wif cousin... chat abt household allowance... well, tis is da 1st time we talk abt tis n I think there will b more for days to come. hehe... Sorry babe, ur bday present will give u at a later date...
14 Oct t0 18 OCt I was stationed at Serangoon North Ave 4 wif quite a bit of ppl... which included, Wari, WeiLiang, Syam, Hamidah(cashier), Yee Phyo n some suntec cashier... ohya... ann was our mangement on duty... love her to bits... haf quite a lot of time chatting wif her. anyway, 1st day was a killer... freaking busy n da rest of da days were so-so... nth interesting but our packer r nice. haha....
Yday spend da day at home, cuz dear was nt free to meet mi until thur... so quarrel n almost fight wif my mum... den told buddy abt it... den at nite... dear found out... n we sms-ed for around 1.5hrs b4 he decided to call me... talk for around 1hr b4 I find it quite miserable.... dear was a special one... he was nt like my other ex(s), all side me whenever I quarrel with my family... he break down da situation for me n analysis the situation for me... but he was quite naggy sia... ask me look for jobs.. it's not tat I dun wan to look for jobs... it's jus taat I dun noe wad to do... after analysis it, he think I more suitable to b a programmer.. but so far I found a few admin job. I think he dun like me to do admin job... haha... den go to slp... tis thur will mark our 1st month n he dun even know abt it.. sms-ing wif him make me feel stupid... but since he will nv read my blog... I shall bad-mouth abt him. haha.. I aso nt tat bad... but still... dear, I <3 ya!
-Monday, October 12, 2009-2:02 AM Y
I now realli feel like breaking down...
1st of all... short $39.75 today. n da weird thing is tat I only open 6hrs. I find my sup quite supicious over tis... 1st of all... she open my counter when i'm at appliance, nxt, she did nt let mi count my change for 1k... I realli have no idea...
I realli wan to give up on him... I realli nt happy over tis rs... he doesn't seem to care abt me at all... everytime is I msg him n when I told him abt my feelings, he will say I think too much n tried to make mi happy. I realli dun noe wad he's thinking. I noe he's busy wif his sch work. I told myself ample times that I mus b considerate n b a gd galfriend... but wad do I get? Nothing at all. I realli nt happy at all...
I feel like gg to da end of tis world... Nothing tat goes smoothly to me, every year it's getting worst n worst... I dun noe how long I can take it or can I even manage it? I realli dun noe... I wan to leave tis world, for good...
-Sunday, October 4, 2009-1:41 AM Y
my 150th post...
nth much to talk abt...
laogong now in bintan... nobody there for me...
but I noe my blog gt 1 royal reader...
she's gd at drinking...
n she's none other than SKSF!!! haa... but u wun tag me de... so far only 1 tag... sadded rite...
bye...
hope tml nt at suntec... I will faint man...
-Saturday, October 3, 2009-1:21 AM Y
I need some1 to talk to now...
I ought to feel happy now... I realli ought to... But I dun even feel any happiness within me...
Msg mx n tell him tat I'm gg out wif R. but his reply is damn cold, "Have fun". Den after tat I told him tat he dun even seem to care... n again to him, I'm testing him. It's totally not true... I told him it's not true n guess wad, he dun even bother to reply me... Sick n tired of his behavior... Sometimes, I will wonder whether he's serious or not... But whenever I doubt myself to this... He will do smth to make me feel tat he's serious. I realli hate it... I wonder if I can meet him nxt wk or not. At least I try my best to b a gd gf to him... But I realli doubt on him...
Anyway, meet R was kinda great feeling to him at 1st... but apparently, he was on da phone... until at rocher beancurd... den we have a small talk den after we jiu go home. but b4 we parted, he give me a kiss on my forehead, which make me feel v.comfy... I dun noe whether my feeling was okay for this or not... I missed R a lot... he's some1 special to me... But I know it's impossible for us. I'm attached wif mx n my job now is to treat him well....
I realli hate myself...