-Saturday, October 3, 2009-1:21 AM Y
I need some1 to talk to now...
I ought to feel happy now... I realli ought to... But I dun even feel any happiness within me...
Msg mx n tell him tat I'm gg out wif R. but his reply is damn cold, "Have fun". Den after tat I told him tat he dun even seem to care... n again to him, I'm testing him. It's totally not true... I told him it's not true n guess wad, he dun even bother to reply me... Sick n tired of his behavior... Sometimes, I will wonder whether he's serious or not... But whenever I doubt myself to this... He will do smth to make me feel tat he's serious. I realli hate it... I wonder if I can meet him nxt wk or not. At least I try my best to b a gd gf to him... But I realli doubt on him...
Anyway, meet R was kinda great feeling to him at 1st... but apparently, he was on da phone... until at rocher beancurd... den we have a small talk den after we jiu go home. but b4 we parted, he give me a kiss on my forehead, which make me feel v.comfy... I dun noe whether my feeling was okay for this or not... I missed R a lot... he's some1 special to me... But I know it's impossible for us. I'm attached wif mx n my job now is to treat him well....
I realli hate myself...